My obligation being the eldest

Saturday, August 9th, 2008

I’ve been sending my sister to college since the start of the school year. Last school year, I and my other sister, Carol has been paying for her tuition fee while Daddy sends money for her allowance from the pension he has been receiving. This year, Daddy said he will not send for the meantime because he’ll use his pension to finance the farm as he wanted to plant fruit trees. Since Carol and her family transferred to the province, I was left with Che together with the full responsibility of paying her tuition fee and giving her her daily allowance. Filipino culture, you know. The eldest should be responsible for her siblings.

To be able to send my sister to school, I worked in OHJ and did blogging. If only without her, I don’t need to work. It’s unfair for Ace if I’ll ask money from him to support my sister so I need to sacrifice. Gosh, when will this end? Ever since I worked 5 years ago, seems I’ve been obliged to help my sisters. Lately I realized, I’ve been working for so long and yet I haven’t invested on something. That made me realize I am tired but I don’t have a choice. Daddy is not sending money, Carol just sent once. Ace has been telling me to inform Daddy and Carol that I will not support Che2x 100% so that I could also have my share in my earnings but  I don’t have the guts to text them. I just hope they will realize they also have an obligation, not mine alone.

This has become a big issue between me and Ace. I’m already married and should be thinking for our own now. But I just can’t let Che2x stopped going to school because I did not supported her financially. Anyway it’s her last year in college. As I told her, she should graduate on March by hook or by crook. If not, I will not send her to school anymore.

It made me think how Mamang sacrificed to send us to school barely receiving enough for our consumption in a month. Now its my turn to give back that sacrifice of sending my sister to school and I hope I can manage to do it until she graduates.